“Are you weary friend? Do you feel you don’t measure up? Do you know her? Does she seem to point her finger at you?”
Almost every morning, just before I need to get up, my anxiety sets in. Oh yes! I am weary. And I feel like I don’t measure up. Can I deal with another day of this life? Most of the time I don’t think I can and I wish I could just go back to sleep.
As I am writing this it is 2 pm and I am still in my pajamas,there are toys strewn about and the dining table is adorned (not by a pretty lace tablecloth) but with paper, crayons, color books, more toys, anything can be lurking there. Then the kitchen, don’t even go there and the laundry room yikes!!! A lot of the time I don’t really notice it because I live here but sometimes I think “what if I had an unexpected guest stop by?” Or, “what would my mother think?”
I had once heard the question, “Have you seen the show, How Clean is your House?” Yep, she compared my house to that. Have any of you heard of that show? It’s the one where these two English ladies come and go through your house and one of them tests stuff for bacteria etc. Then they have a cleaning crew come in and clean it from top to bottom. It hasn’t been on for a while but I used to watch it and some of the homes were pretty gross. To have her say that to me was a big blow.
My situation at that time was that we lived in an upstairs apartment and I was very pregnant with my daughter. The garage and laundry were downstairs and after a while I just couldn’t keep going up and down the stairs all day so I didn’t…and stuff piled up. I needed help but no one helped me so I just let things go. I remember when I still was under my parents’ roof and every Friday was cleaning day. We would clean the house from top to bottom. I was the youngest of 6 so when we cleaned, it stayed clean. There were no littles messing everything up behind us as we cleaned. Know what I mean? I am sure that you do. I don’t know what the house looked like when she had littles running about. I have three brothers and two sisters. It may have looked like mine does now…and she was probably weary too.
“Come to me all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens and I will give you rest”Matthew 11:28
Lara Volkoff is a wife and mother to two sweet blessings whom she homeschools. She writes about her faith, her family, motherhood and her homeschooling journey on her blog at Learning Through My Eyes and can also be found on Facebook encouraging homeschooling moms of challenging children.
Week Three Links:
- Monday – Chapter 3: Stacey’s Video Post
- Wednesday – Chapter 3: When You Don’t Measure Up by Megan
- To see all of the posts for this study so far, you can view them here.
And now for our Friday Link-Up!
Here is your opportunity to tell YOUR story! Will you share your heart and bless another mom?
- How did God meet you in your days this week?
- How often do you catch yourself comparing your home, job, income, parenting or even your faith with someone else?
- What has Jesus been speaking to your heart lately?
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